后悔了，只想说声对不起

去年吧，我看到一辆车粘着‘人生最大的惩罚是后悔’! 心想好像又几对一下的, 想回以前真的是做了几件后悔的事...

就讲还记得的吧，某年某月某一天，我跟‘他’算是好朋友吧... 跟他一起打机，msn 聊天，一起补习，开玩笑, 还有就是去 pasar 吃炒 kuey teow 吧... 虽然我不觉的怎样好吃法(有时吃饱了), 但他讲到超级好吃，就陪他吃吧.... 到了今天有时还会去吃一下的... 回味下...

恶梦就在一起读书的时候...

开学了，刚进的时候觉得他还挺好的吗... 他说他想换学校, 应为那边有比较多朋友, 但他的成绩跟我一样酱烂，去了也不会跟那边的朋友同班，可能还死过这里... 我就 3 8 叫他不要去咯！ 想回当时该让他去啊，酱子的话可能现在还是朋友吧...

刚开始的时候，他还挺厉害的，虽然每天没来学校，我的位置旁边是空空的... 几 sien 下~

不过事情越来越严重, 一个礼拜来 3-4 天，没做功课，老师们就开始着急了... 问我他怎么了~? 我答病了吧! ( 心想应该是心病吧)

老师开始问他问不停, 他默默不出声或傻笑回老师，老师也没办法... 他每天在我旁边发呆，跟他讲话有时听不到, 不然的话就跟我讲 game 的事，一讲就整个人 high 起来，讲个不停. 虽然我不会玩，也配和他一下，但是心想他应该是上瘾了吧...

虽然我知道他天资聪明，但我还是开始担心他... 某一天，我终于忍不住了(真想这一刻可以重来), 我问了很敏感的课题：‘其实你还要读吗? 你每天酱子 ponteng 功课退步不少...' 够力，他的脸黑了，那一天没睬我了... 回到家后，他开了 MSN 他既然骂我 babi 就没理我了... 那天后，我们的话题开始少了...

接近放假了，老师给了我们 assignment 放假做，我跟他一组了，心想快点 9 dim 它吧，放假就轻松多了，没想到他一拖在拖，拖到接近开学才忙起来. 我怕他做不完(那是真的很生气的)，就在多做 7题，没想到他当天真的做的完... 算了... 白白做了～

开学了，他还是老样子... 我去问某位老师该怎样做，老师说:"不要理他，最好不要粘他酱多， 他不要读就不要在这里害人"(虽然我也一样, 只是我想尽量读完它)... 回家心想试试看吧, 没想到事情变得跟严重... 那一年里，是我做过最傻的事... 我们虽然就坐在旁边，但是我们的对话有时一天都不到一句... 想想看，几无奈啊!!! 我就开始跟拿些其他朋友坐，就冷落他... 因为我不知道如何面对他，面对一个一句话也不跟我说的他...

最后, 我后悔了，失去了一个朋友，因为我自己的自私... 算了...到了先在，外面见到了也好想不认识一样... 只是, 如果时间能倒回的话,

我真的很想很想对他说声：对不起!

-mY命Gua

我怕怕！

我真的很怕! 我真的真的很怕!!

我怕痛，我怕的痛不是自己受伤，我怕的是看到别人受伤，好像看到朋友被割伤，我心里会很痛很痛... 好像可以感觉到他的痛~ 但我不会晕倒，只是怕罢了，还是会想办法帮他...

做工时，朋友给我 Bluetooth 看一张照片，是在晚上时拍的... 里面好多奇奇怪怪的白点, 有大有小，他就叫我 zoom in 看下... 吓! 白点里有个眼睛，虽然很 blur 但是可以confirm 是眼睛... 吓到一下~ 但还是没什么... 老妈子以前对我说: 不用怕鬼的, 她从没看过一"位"... 也许吧, 全世界将多人，我会看到‘那个’的 probability 会很少吧... 但我有个希望就是人生里最好可以看一下"那位"，一次就够了(纯粹是本人真的很好奇) :>

可能‘那个’在可怕也不够 Lizard 可怕吧! 我从小到大都被 Lizard 欺负~ 不要看它小小，可是跑很快的呢! 平时我不凡它，它不凡我, 就算它凡我也没办法~ 年三十晚还被它经过我的脚,冷冰冰的，超 GELI的，我可喊到乱，全家人都被我吓到, 几 'yu' 下 >.<~

天啊～如果天下的 Lizard 都死光光就好了~

-我的 Life 瓜～

傻傻的我

现在每天都是开工放工的, 几 sien 下... 不过还好有几位朋友可以吹一下~ ;)

士林几好下，只是新年前还没拿到工钱，无奈下...

有时觉得自己几傻下，以为勤劳可以换来报酬或赞赏，但看到别人没做什么也一样领一样的薪水还做我的"啊头",心开始闷了，我也该学学他们...

算了，谁叫我是白痴一个，每次做工都给人欺负...

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新年了，几闷一下，朋友都忘了我吧... 算了... 在家也是不错下，看看漫画有一天... 尽量享受吧，因为过几天又要开工了...

可能是做工的关系吧，上个月买的新裤好像变大了(可能是幻觉吧 ._.) ...

无聊的新年，就在家里看些有关投资的东西... 看下看下好像很好的，就找资料到早上 4点才睡觉, 几够力一下. 可能会买一点吧, 希望会赚点够喝茶的钱吧(不可以贪心 :P )

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很久没的 online 了，开始觉得朋友好远，不知道他们的讲什么，看来我几 outdate 下了...

没办法啊，想申请 P1 or Streamyx 都不敢因为两个都有 contract，还是等到读大学才买吧, 但是不知可以读到没有...

-我的生活瓜~

脸书～

在 Facebook 里，我发觉了一样东西. 这样东西每天都发生，没男女朋友的人看到都 'SIEN' 了。
就是我发觉有很多爱情专家....

每天讲到自己 生离死别+生老病死 都经历过了.... 看到我一头雾水 =_=ll

天天不是分手，失恋，想念，怀念，暧昧有的时候还比台湾爱情剧跟好看... 搞到我无言... 因为他/她讲到太精彩了... 难怪情歌和爱情剧那么受欢迎...

可能我没伴侣吧(没人要 T_T).... 但是多多少少都会给他/她一个 'Like' 来鼓励鼓励他/她一下... 来日方长，希望他/她天长地久吧...
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最近心情不好，得罪了很多人... 真的是 'paiseh paiseh'
晚上没睡好，早上要早起，痛苦死了...
但是没办法啊，自己找了的... (够笨) ._.V
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发觉考试期间，很多人都 ' Xiao Xiao' 的，comment 一天比一天非.... 笑到肚子疼(ouch!)
好像 HL 我是一只没脚的小鸟 =_= 够力 几久没有听到～
小顺子 'comment' 人家就踩人家到够够力，笑到我 'Beh Tahan'~
AnnTiu 病情一天比一天严重，阿弥陀佛~ 哦, 对不起你是基督教的， AMEN~ 早日康复吧～
YM 很够力 'Stress' 咯～ 几 'Cham' 下~ 加油加油～
希望大家好好加油....
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找到工了～ 考完试就可以去面试了, 保持抱去几好下～ 不要说我独吃没找给你，我也是找人找给我的～～ ' Paiseh Paiseh'
希望我面试成功吧.... 阿弥陀佛~~~

-mYlifeGua 字~ :P

World = Normal Profit - Total Lost + HardWork

i don like math, u can say wat i also don like bah.... don feel like to study~ but soon the exam will come at last, still nid study bah.... just bored n write something...

Me & You
My distance with you are parallel line, no matter how we move or how far we go, we just cant meet each other... but we will watching each other on the other side, nvr get a chance to speak with each other.
i just hope our gradient are different, therefore 1 day we can meet each other and get a chance to speak with and know more about you.
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That day Pn.Angel ask us to speak about 'Fear', WKX say he fear lonely. In my heart say who doesnt? Everyone scare, if someone say they don fear lonely, this is because he/she oledi be used to. But in his deep mind still hope someone will his side by side.

Now i notice the world changed, the sentences '天下爸妈都是一样的' starting to vaporize. But luckly i still have and i satisfy for it, because after i heard story from fren i get the idea.
Not many ppl like me, got daddy and mummy or live in a comfortable house without worrying my next meal... some ppl without mum, some nid to worry how to survive in this REALITY WORLD, some nid to take care back parents. But the god are fair, he take something from you but u gain something back from it. I just felt this is the way how the world work. For me, i just a stupid guy wasting time, but for others not... Maybe i shouldn't continue like this but i just cant, because i don have the motive like others does. Who don wan good result and make others proud? who don wan to be special? but i just cant... the others will only say 身在福中不知福, ya right...

i think few more week later, my class will be in hibernate mood... those laughing sound and gossip starting to vaporize too... many will fight for the STPM but not me, i will just pretend so that it will let my heart to get better...

-mYlifeGua

My Supper Story~

Saturday, June 12, 2010(10.30pm-11.30pm)
Today I meet my dad’s friend, although I dunno his name but I think most of u also know him. He work at ‘Medan Selera’, he cook VERY delicious Western-style food and surprisely it is cheap too~ He is a Indian but he totally dunno Indian language, but he can speak fluently mandarin and Cantonese, I was Totally!! Shock ._. bcoz even I also cant do that. My dad say he been rise by Chinese because his mum don wan him, so he can speak mandarin and Cantonese but not Tamil~ >.<” I also heard that he last time is a Hotel Cooker and took photo with谢霆锋(if not wrong, so don ply ply a) :P
My dad like to eat beefsteak, but he don wan sell coz he say it is too expensive for them. Now I only noe beef cannot last for 4days, if after 4days u nid to throw away or u can cook Redang -_-. Furthermore, he say beef import from New Zealand cost RM 20-40/Kilo n many ppl cannot afford it. Normally, we eat at E.G or at T.C(guess urself) there put many chemical inside n he say even a pregnant woman eat too much will ‘Jatuh’ her baby…. -_-(mean next time u don wan ur baby u can go try try xD) He told us the T.C cooker’s Sifu is his student, he teach the student Half n it cost RM3000, n the T.C sifu teach the T.C cooker half again, mean he only learn ? things… LOL!! He suggest us don eat too many at T.C coz full of chemical and the best way is cook ourself. He say he don wan earn much coz he say he just wan to waste time if not the 2 of them(I mean him and his wife xD) will be vry SIEN. He never put chemical in his meat to make it ‘tahan’ long n earn many, bcoz he don wan earn the few ringgit n say ‘GOODBYE’ to his friends that eat his food. This make me fell touching T.T….
Early in the morning 7oclock, he nid go buy many ingredient, before 10oclock MUST reach his shop n start to Cut fish and take off the chicken skin out, cook the sauce (buzy buzy). At nite 7-9oclock is the most buzy time for them especially Saturday n Sunday, he nid cook almost 200-300 plate with 1 cooker(him lo) n 8 Supreme HOTPLATE at that time and most funny he say hot until his underwear also become wet…. (mean he nid bring few underwear to work? :P) He told me, never EVER work as a cooker, if wan cook also go to Hotel work but not like him work at ‘Tepi Jalan’. This make me fell Wordless……. But thx to him I got ‘ALASAN’ told my mum not to become a cooker xD, hehe…
Lastly, I recommend u all to recommend more ppl to eat at this although is small, cheap(cheap does not mean it have no quality and quantity) and not like the big restaurant got air-con but u still can enjoy a tasty food who make by a good-hearted cooker who care the health of customer. But the sad case is he thinking of close the shop after 1-2years, so you all should faster try try~ ? Enjoy

发呆=石化=ME

发呆～ Do u noe wat the meaning of 发呆？According to 百度, 发呆 can help let our brain to rest and when we 发呆 it mean we actually in another dimension(mean dunno anything happen around u) and we actually r happy n relax in that state.

Myself always spend 1min to 发呆 everyday. After drive back from school,i will sit in my car 发呆 1min and it make me feel soo good after it ._.V
发呆 help me relax soo much, hehe... but u noe? not everyone can 发呆 especially women~(i read from a article)

After a long day for work or school, man will sit down there '石化' for sometime ._. this mean we r resting~~ but for women, they rest = go shopping buy thing n talk with friends. Women sit down there will think of later wan go where or some other problem and they just cant stop thinking @@
therefore 发呆 is a God gift for men. Women will nvr noe y men always 发呆 n for them is totally wasting time! But for men will always nvr noe y women soo like go shopping and they will nvr feel tired for it ._.
(Don blame me if wrong... coz i read from article) ._.V

Ok la, no more man or women le... lets talk abt my class situation~ STPM getting nearer n nearer AND the pressure also ON THE WAY, but not me gua =_= maybe I only getting pressure after i take stpm result xD. Our class member oledi show the pressure around them le, like doing tuitionwork n keep do revision. Hope they can share some pressure for me too. Maybe MP right lo, i don wan study don kacau them =_=" only can kacau in the right time :P. I noe i sometime vry kacau in the class, but sry lo i vry sien ma T_T

Another thing i wan to talk about is MOOD(心情)... this thing vry geng 1 lo, he can totally change a nice person to another person -_-
When mood = Bad = Warning others fuck off ._.(although they nvr say out)
When mood = Good = can ply till vry GILA 1 and go kacau ppl :P Strange hor?
Some ppl will bad mood for few day or week and some only 1day or few hours. For me leh, even i SOOOOO BAD mood i also wont bring to any place, but for some others will like go where also like that SCARY face make others people 怕怕.
1 more funny person is they tot themself r angel from the sky, wan go help those who r in a bad mood. They may ask 'How r u' or some others excuse to get closer to them, but the person only answer 'NOTHING(mean FK off)' so u should not get closer. Just let them sometimes n they will get better n become themself again.

Finally i updated my 1-2month nvr touched blog xD so don say i nvr update my blog jor o =_=

-mYlifeGua(By Apple IpHone but not mine T_T)