暗戀

為什麼說暗戀那麼好? 
因為暗戀從來不會失戀
你一笑我高興很多天 
你一句話我記得好多年

你不必記得我 
我也不去打擾你
在最美好的時光裡
一個人偷偷地喜歡

 

ki xiao me~

Today dunno why lo,
suddenly vry down,
at night 2am still walk go DPP Mas there,
go there dunno do what.

But fell much more better after the walking,
just....
dunno what happen to me,
felt like wanna cry,
just can't

Felt like wanna hug someone and cry vry vry lound,
let my sadness wash away by my tears.

有时真的想让自己的近视加深，
酱的话就不用看清楚别人，
看清楚人就很在意。

因为快乐的人，都是善忘的人。

我，重来都不说出. . . . . .

Sleep lu, after writing felt good. Tats me :)

Blog is a good way to describe ur feeling,
and a safe place to let u keep ur memory.

When free, look back ur blog,
You u found that, u also tat time will write tis.

Mood 来 Please

五月中了，大考要到了.
这个 sem 成绩超烂的，每天都顾着玩，很少读书.
算了，自己拿来的

突然来了很多 Assignment
Statistic, Accounting, ICT 一下子全部要一起交，差点断气
不管了，决定用一个礼拜的时间来读书，不然真的会搞出人命

突然有预感，下个 Sem 会有很大的变化
感觉会被踢到其他 DPP
不过真的喜欢  TNB 因为 TOILET 很干净，
去 DKG 5，6 又很近，不用酱早起身
只是 TNB 的活动真的很 SIEN
想看些异性动物都很难(谢绝云吞，水饺)

可笑

我身边连一个关心我的朋友都没有
为什么总是要我来问呢？
难道每个人都以为我没心事？
我常关心的人，都没有一个来问我
可笑啊

开。心

Dunno why today mood soo happy :)

Felt like something good will happen ~ ~ ~

Go register for SIG

Hmm, today just study at library with Mr.J

Nite go do exhibition in PKP with Mr.L

8 with YM for 1 hour

Nothing special today wor, dunno why happy ~ ~ ~ ~

Maybe i just download few song that make me felt good?

What I want to say: 

All those fairy tales are full of shitOne more fucking love song, I'll be sick.

This parts lyric I like:

It's even harder to picture, That you're not here next to me.

Maroon 5 - Payphone

Tell yourself "Don Stress, Jangan Gan Jiong, Don Anxious"
Make your life abit more COLOUR FULL

恶作剧是好朋友的证明，所以我 KACAU 你的时候你要感激我 

因为我不是什么人都 KACAU 的 =口=

-mYlifeGua ( TNB 啊瓜炒饭，超好吃）

H.A.I.Z

See someone write:

在网上聊到 gila gila 的朋友，见面的时候没话讲

在网上的时候没话讲的朋友，见面讲到 gila gila

看来真的是对的

如果在关丹，同房跟我聊到三更半夜

在 UUM, 完全没话讲，每天问他有事吗？都没话讲
算了，他不讲，我也不想听了，反正自己也帮不上忙
每天回来，他对着他的电脑，我对着我的电脑，这样又过一天

after mid sem break 回来后，做什么事情都没心去做，超 Moody 的
突然很想做很 sot 的东西，大声哭，大声喊
很想看一些很感人的电影来哭一场，发泄一下
但希望有人来陪我一下，讲下心事
但每天都是我听人家讲罢了，没人要听我的
最重要每次人家讲了hou，都要守秘，超辛苦的

心很累，可能要病了

Secret

i don dare tell, i scare our frenship gone

i scare later we cant chat like old times

i dunno wat feeling is tis, just felt like 我不配

just hope you can find someone who like you more then i like you

【做人的底线】

（1）不做第三者，即使再喜欢
（2）骗我可以，如果被我知道超过两次，请你有多远滚多远
（3）如果你拿我不当回事，我会以同样的方式对你
（4）我可以装傻，但别以为我真傻
（5）我可以容忍，但别超过我的底线
（6）我不是没脾气，只是不轻易发脾气
（7）任何的真话，我都能接受

Lost Best Friend

Great News, i just lost 1 best friend. Maybe i too easy take people as best friend? Idiot me :D
So happy to have a friend to come along to the same UNI & BOOM the problem occurs.
Many people say, people change.
And YES, im changing and Mr.J also change

Diff dpp diff fren and our relation become further & further.

For me is NVM.

His my Best Friend, OK?
Always worrying he got ticket back home town or return UUM

He nvr worry himself! except the last min ask me WHAT TIME a?
Whatever~
I hope can help him as much as i can! because i know his family problem & bla bla bla
Haha, maybe i tot myself is hero?

Just sometimes fucking hate his attitude!
Always LIKE A BOSS
Do liao only regrets (maybe he nvr regret, i dunno)

Always worry him about his financial PROBLEM
but, but, but... he nvr worry, always say UNDER MY BUDGET!
FINE then... When i say more, will say me "你有钱吗，你没有这个烦恼"
Maybe he forget those words, but for me is HURT
Bfr in uni, earn Rm50/day, tell me NO MONEY
Go pub at penang, buy iphone, come back KTN everyday SPEND SPEND SPEND and last tell me I NO MONEY!
Mature abit please, ur mum only earn 1k below and u still got a SIS
Yes, im rich! Im fucking rich compare to u!! Does't mean i spend like you.
Everyday say MUST ENJOY LIFE, Compare urself with YM please! DARE?

Yes, im angry!
First, early say don want buy ticket! Fine, buy myself. Finally brought one and ready go back UUM with BUS. Saw the bus coming, 1 phone call me, HELP ME BUY TICKET, THX. OK i go buy it. You know how fucking long to walk to the bus station from C-Mart? come back 1 word THX, DONE

Second, i fucking hate the Joey. All people around me also noe tat~! He go sell to her. AND SHE JUST SIT BESIDE ME!! OMG, for me!! Lucky YM agree sit with me! But still i forgive him because he also hard sell ticket, but please confirm first can? Don last minit change please! if want last min change please ask me go buy Singal SIT!!

Last, EON Festival! Asked him come along or not? YES I SURE CAN!! OK, i PAID. NEXT DAY, SORRY I CANT, i need go with my tradewind GANG! Great, KTN gang is not people? my money? I PAID RM320 ALONE! Thank GOD with blessed, last minit got 阿福 come only can cover 2 more places, left 1 more places. Who gonna replace? Bla, i pay myself for 2 places BECAUSE IM FUCKING RICH! :D

What Call friend?
Sometimes just want go your room tell the problem i face to.
When i arrived, u buzy chat with GIRL in FB.
Talk to you like talk to WALL, later HAR? PARDON? U SAY WAT JUST NOW?

Is it soo important chat with that girl? RESPECT PLEASE, im talking with u!
If for u, u like?

Back to the topic what call friend?
Always Spend SPEND SPEND money go YC, PUB, DRINK ALCOHOL = friend?
If tat YES, sorry lo, im not!! Then GL & HF

Everyday say litsime them FFK, u dulan tis dulan tat.
Yourself?

Do you worry about go bck to ktn?
YES, me and YM fucking worry cant go back! We worry sit behind! because 10hours!!
You? Need myself go ASK YOU only say OK? dunno come urself ask?

How about money? i help MC, CC, YM buy all fast fast give me cash, because i don have FUCKING MANY CASH ON HAND!!

Because u my BEST FRIEND i don dare ask u give 1st, i know ur problem! If u want NEXT SEM give i also nvm! If give others i oledi o0o him

i just want tell you
" I'm very tired to become your friend, I hate the feeling i've been used like an IDIOT, SORRY "

I already tried vry hard nt to angry, but still...

I really hope u can c tis! but nvm, u nvr noe i have a blog....

Eii, soo long no come back write blog d.... lazy write~ :P
But now got more important things to do -_- is 减肥-ing
Boh bien, come back UUM then my pants all felt soo tide... T_T
Therefore, need 减肥 jor... ~
Everyday need calculate how much calories have been taken, damn sien....
Soo now i everyday write down what i have eaten inside the blog to remind myself~~

So, my BMR is 2165.80calories. Mean i only can take less then it if not it become my FATS~
Who else want try also can go -> http://cn.fitness.com/tools/bmr/
So, online research i know that to -1kg you need 3500-3850calories
Therefore, if everyday i only take 1500calories

2165.80calories - 1500calories = 665.8 calories
Exercise 1hour per day can -200++calories
900 calories x 7days = 6300 calories

That mean if i no exercise, i also will -1kg per week~ Sound like fun :P

Now my INTAKE calories per day:

19/02
Breakfast:
Nasi Goreng(130) + Green Tea(0) -> 130

Lunch:
Rice(214) + Vege(100) + Green Tea(0) -> 314

Dinner:
Rice(214) + Vege(150) -> 364

Snack:
Raisins(300) -> 300

The first day i take is 1108 calories~ But they advice us to take 1500 calories per day~ So maybe tmr i only
do a new food list again bah... XD

-mYlifeGua

领悟

大考还剩一张，真是爽啊～ 但是还没能酱快可以回家 -_- 算了～

回想起第一天来到这里，还挺怕的... 好彩有 Mr.Leong 在，hehe
进来的第一天，跟到一个几恐怖一下的 Roommate 手上脸上的疤痕吓了我一下 -_-
结果每天跟 Mr.Leong 抱怨我的 Roommate 这个那个的
后来熟了起来，才知道手上脸上的疤痕是车祸造成的，然后看到那些伤痕应该很疼
有时他在别人面前“强笑”，但是回房后整个人看起来有很多不能说的秘密
可能来到大学后他没真正的开心过吧

在大学最高兴的可能是认识一帮朋友吧，但是有时我还是无法和他们参进去
可能 Form1-6 很少有一帮可以酱癫的朋友，所以自己的 Social 力量也很差了吧
开始习惯孤独了

学到的东西挺多的，比如 MPP 的 Event 吧
看到每个人为了上位就不择手段或带着面具做人
不过这个 Event 还 OK 吧

Kuantan 的朋友，感觉越来越远了
TNB 的某位朋友生日都会从 laluan B 来，来到后只有我这 Kuantan 人而且住在 TNB 被忘记
就连住在对面的都不会过来叫一声，当天超级失望
就连 FB 我讲 "no ask me" 结果一大堆人去 Like
难道我酱令你们讨厌吗？

看了过后一定问，有酱惨吗？
不如你来试试看？有事找你，没事忘记你

所以下个 SEM 我要改变自己，不要为这些人及事物去烦
为了自己，不要再去做没有用的事
I need to change myself to prevent myself getting hurt by others again

-MyLife